but this just isn’t right… YEEESH!
but this just isn’t right… YEEESH!
I never thought I’d be one those women. I never thought I’d be someone who would nurse my children indefinitely.
I thought, at best, I would nurse my boys until they were 6 months. If I was lucky. If I was lucky enough to have babies who made it easy for me. Babies who took to breastfeeding easily. Not like the sad stories I read on all those website when I was pregnant and scared witless. Not like those women who virtually cried on-screen describing how, no matter what they tried, their babies wouldn’t latch on. Or they couldn’t produce enough milk. Or it was too painful. Or they hated it.
Well, my babies latched on right away. From day one, literally. And they made it easy. It took a little while to gain my footing but I did. And I never looked back.
The boys are almost 17 months old now. I’ve nursed them all this time. Granted, it’s only once a day at this point – before bed – but that’s all they really want.
Somehow, for many reasons and none at all, it seems like it’s time to quit. The reasons that I can articulate in my mind are not worth sharing here. They’re banal and trite. So are the reasons for NOT quitting, actually. I guess it’s just a feeling. It’s just a feeling that the Mama who breastfed her little babies has to move on like they’ve moved on. They’re walking, almost talking and it just seems like we’re moving into a whole other ballgame.
Soon enough, we’ll start looking at pre-schools. We’ll be looking at weaning them from full days at home. Like I said, it’s a whole other ballgame.
I’m melancholy about it. I’m not entirely happy to move on… but that’s me, not them. I’ve had this purpose for the last 16 months. A purpose that was easily defined and could only be fulfilled by me. I’m sad to let that go. Such a clear and definite purpose in life is not easy to find.
I guess it’s a good thing I’m too busy to think about it too much.
The playpen in the living room is becoming less and less relevant as the boys get older and their wanderlust grows. They’re still amenable to spending a little bit of time in there but the activities therein are becoming more and more unruly. One of those activities, aside from the de rigueur chuck-EVERYTHING-out-of-the-playpen game, (Hey lookit Mama/Dada picking it up again!) involves Nicholas squeezing himself into the overflowing toy basket and proactively reaffirming the laws of displacement.
The pleasure is fleeting, because, soon enough, he runs out of toys to chuck but I think that’s half the fun. The game has a start and an end.
And, sometimes, as a bonus, he rediscovers a long lost favourite in the process.
breakfast in this house
As you can see, Goose has developed quite an appetite for blueberry waffles.
Hey, lookit me on my fabulous new green FauxPhone™. Blah, blah, blahdy, blahblah, bloooh, blah.
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Hey, waitadamnminute! What is this piece of junk?!? I can’t hear a thing. It keeps losing my calls.
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It used to stand on end. It drew comments from almost EVERYONE who’d pass us. It was his trademark.
Sebastian’s hair.
Alas, his baby duck down has grown and grown and grown. What was once a giddy porcupine became a floppy mop. And finally, it just fell. It fell into his eyes.
So, Superbowl Sunday we got down to business. I got some shiny new shears and Dada wrangled the little monkey onto his lap for the symbolic first haircut.
Pre-chopchop:
Post-chopchop:
There’s no doubt that he is a full fledged toddler now.
And, in case you’re wondering, Nicholas is still holding fast to his hair. I think he’s got several more weeks before the big chop, chop.
We have a membership at the Bay Area Discovery Museum. One of the fun things that the boys can do there is play in a pretend stream with plastic fishies and froggies. We tried that for the first time this week. I think they liked it.
See for yourself (click on the photo for more images):
You can’t really tell from the photos but, despite the aprons, both of them were sopping wet (and COLD) by the time we were done.